sunshine after the rain
It seems so long ago when I first met my saviourHidden in my history, a long forgotten mornPrologue of a mud, trodden roadFilled with roses that has sharp, jagged thornsAnd yet the sorrow laden road was blinded from meFlower-strewn paths were all I seeI took a step, He held my handWe walked onto unknown wasted, barren landBecause I knowIn every tomorrow, He will be thereNever forsaken, always forgivenGuidance and strength every step of the wayPower to overcome weakness and lack of faithHope for every moment of painComfort for every tearSunshine after the rainThinking back of years that came to passAnd of familiar faces, sights and smellsI was brought back to moments of happinessand times of dark, gloomy daysI tried to remember times of innocenceof child-like faith and loveBut realized that I've lost themthrough the cold storms and the windy rainAnd still I knowIn every tomorrow, He will be thereNever forsaken, always forgivenGuidance and strength every step of the wayPower to overcome weakness and lack of faithHope for every moment of painComfort for every tearSunshine after the rainIt rained and it poured, the wind howled at my bodyShattered my heart and destroyed my sanityI looked up to heaven with arms open wideTears flowing down my darkened eyesHeartbroken with nothing insideFell on my knees and could do nothing but cryBecause I want to knowIn every tomorrow, He will be thereNever forsaken, always forgivenGuidance and strength every step of the wayPower to overcome weakness and lack of faithHope for every moment of painComfort for every tearSunshine after the rainI woke up one long forgotten mornAnd saw the sun shining through the howling stormThe wind stop. The skies cleared.The rain halt to a slight pitter patter.I stood up and saw my saviourAnd remembered the time I first fell in loveHe held my hand, took my broken heartand kissed my tears awayAnd I finally knowIn every tomorrow, He will be thereNever forsaken, always forgivenGuidance and strength every step of the wayPower to overcome weakness and lack of faithHope for every moment of painComfort for every tearSunshine after the rainLabels: heart soul mind
tagged - 5 simple pleasures in life
I was tagged by Elaine. Ah payback.5 simple pleasures in life:1. No more studying, no more assignments, no more worrying about grades, no more school. I know working is tough but at least you get paid to do it.2. To sit by the beach in the middle of the night, pitch dark save for street and city lights and twinkling stars, with not a hint of wind. If you have ever joined me in this pleasure, you sure are special. If you haven't but you are special in my life, it's probably because you sleep early, or you think I'm crazy for going to the beach in the middle of the night.3. Long, meaningful and private conversations.4. To have the company of good friends who truly care.5. To wake up in the morning, look out the window, see beautiful sunshine, and know by faith that life is worth living, and is filled with hopeNot going to tag anyone this time. I had my fair share of fun.Labels: musings
mama, elaine, fiona, emma, leesha, karen and you know who you are...
Terima kasih untuk segala-galanya. Terima kasih kerana tidak membiarkan ku bersendirian dengan kesedihan dan air mataku. Terima kasih atas doa yang disampaikan kepada Tuhan Maha Besar atas pihak ku. Terima kasih atas nasihat dan galakan yang dibagi. Terima kasih kerana berada di sisi ku sepanjang masa ini. Terima kasih atas makanan yang dibeli, jagaan yang dibagi, dan kasih sayang yang dicurahkan, tanpa meminta balik apa-apa pun daripada ku. Akan ku kuatkan semangat menghadapi cabaran. Akan ku sekali lagi berdiri atas kaki ku sendiri. Akan ku selalu mengingati kasih sayang dan rahmat Tuhan yang melimpah selama-lamanya. Labels: heart soul mind
more than conquerors
....(It was gloomy, windy, and raining)Him: Don't you think this weather suits the situation?Me: (Pause) No, because I know after the rain there will be sun. After the rain there will be a rainbow. But for us, there will not be anymore sun.........Mom: I feel your pain. I can feel it right here in my heart. Be strong ok? Don't blame God, don't blame him, don't blame yourself. Don't be bitter. You need to believe that God is with you through good times and bad. There's a lesson here that you need to learn. You are too naive. You are so sincere in your love, but not everyone will respond that way.Me: But I try to see the positive side of people.Mom: But you need to see their weaknesses as well, or you will be hurt. You need to be shrewd. Don't worry. I will be praying for you. I know you have been through the worst. You are the strongest girl I have ever known. You can overcome this, and you'll be stronger, wiser, and more mature.Me: I'm already far too mature for my age.Mom: (laughs) Be strong ok? Mommy loves you. I told Papa what happened. He's not angry. He asked you not to worry.Me: Okay.......Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.-Rose Walker-I have been made to be more than a conqueror. I will cling to God, my rock and my salvation. He's my only hope. He won't fail me. I am strong enough for this, and I will overcome it. I will be okay. Always have been, always will be. Life has thrown enough shit my way. It's time for me to stand up.It is in your darkest moments in life that you know who are the people that truly care for you. Thank you Fi and Emz for accomodating me. Thank you for not leaving me alone in my pit of sorrow. Thank you for pulling me up, backing me and standing beside me. Thank you Leesha. Thank you Karen. I don't really have much to say, but thank you. Mom, thank you, and I can't wait to be with you again.It's like the song..."I believe that I will see the love I give returned to me..."
at the pinnacle of stress
You know that you're at the pinnacle of stress when:- your face looks like the planet Mars, with mini-size Mt Ruapehu- you start pigging out on chocolate, hot chocolate, and going to your friend's room to steal more chocolate. Sorry Emz. I know I'm evil.- your favourite word is BORED, even though you have tons to do- procastination is your greatest hurdle- you have supposedly finished reading economics TWICE, opened up the past year paper, looked through the essay questions, and start freaking out, and thinking to yourself, "I know I've read all of these stuff, but I don't remember anything...."- you have sudden grips of worry, and the attacks are increasing on a frequent basis.- you called your mom and your first words are "PRAY FOR ME..."- the weather is beautiful with lots of sunshine, but you're in your room studying when you should be at the beach eating ice cream- you do nothing but study, eat and sleepGod says:Fear not, for I have redeemed you. I have called you by name. You are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. When you pass through the rivers, it will not sweep over you. When you walk through fire, you will not be burned. The fire will not set you ablaze. For I am your Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Saviour. -Isaiah 43:1-2-Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. -Matthew 6:34-Dr. Lloyd John Ogilvie says:Worry is like interest paid on difficulties before it comes due. It's rust on the blade that dulls my capacity to cut through trouble and lance the infection of anxiety. Your Word is true: Worry never changes anything but the worrier, and that change is never positive. Worry is impotent to change tomorrow or redo the past. All it does is sap my strengthJames S. Stewart says:If evil at its overwhelming worst has already been met and mastered, as in Jesus Christ it has; if God has got His hands on this baffling mystery of suffering in its direct, most defiant form, and turned its most awful triumph into uttermost, irrevocable defeat; if that in fact has happened, and on that scale, are you to say it cannot happen on the infinitely lesser scale of our own union with Christ through faith? In heart-breaking things that happen to us, those mental agonies, those spiritual midnights of the soul, we are "more than conquerors" not through our own valor or stoic resolution, not through a creed or code or philosophy, but through Him who loved us - through the thrust and pressure of the invading grace of Christ.Where would I be without God?In the pits of worry, freaking out and wetting my pants.
i've been stabbed by my roomate
It's study break. I have been studying all day. I thought I'd give myself a break by surfing blogs. Lo and behold. My roomate stabbed me with this. So I guess I might as well do it. It looks kinda fun, although some of the statements are pretty brainlessBold the statements that are true to you.Italise the statements that you WISH are true.Leave the Fibs alone.Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.
I miss somebody right now. (Family. Friends. Cats. My cats are family.)
I don’t watch TV these days. (When I am back home, my fat ass is NOT moving from the couch if the TV is on.)
I am currently single (Well, 'technically' single. I'm not married and not going to anytime soon.)
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games. (I have no hand and eye coordination)
I’ve tried marijuana.
I’ve been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy. (Sometimes it's better not to say anything)
I curse.
I have changed mentally over the last year. (I've grown up)
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (whoa..psychotic)
I’m TOTALLY smart. (I'm pretty dumb sometimes. Just ask Vivy about the penguin incident)
I’ve broken someone’s bones. (Not strong enough for that)
I’m paranoid sometimes. (It drives people nuts)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free (sadly that ain't the case.)
I need money right now. (I need money all the time)
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast. (Define 'fast')
I have long hair. (Not long enough. I'm growing it.)
I have lost money in Las Vegas (Never been there)
I have at least one sibling. (A brother and a sister)
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (I wore fake hair to the Weir House Ball)
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D. (I'm bad at remembering anything)
I like the way I look. (If I can get rid of the pimples and lose some weight. Maybe.)
I have a lot of mood swings. (Not really)
I have a hidden talent. (Everybody has at least one talent that you're never going to realize)
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have. (Hyper does not equal to Fran. Hyper people make Fran feel old and tired)
I have a lot of friends. (I like to think so)
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone. (I adore long conversations)
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. (abeh? But I don't have the money though)
Enjoy window shopping. (Ah yes. You burn calories and exercise your eyes)
I would rather shop than eat. (I like shopping and eating on an equal level)
I don’t hate anyone. (Hate is worse than cancer)
I’m a pretty good dancer. (I really really really wish I can dance)
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (Are you crazy? My mom is the most awesome woman in the entire planet!)
I have a cell phone. (It's a necessity)
I believe in God. (He's a necessity, too)
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (I didn't pass out. Haha..)
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future. (Not now though)
I have changed a diaper before. (I can't remember whether I've changed one before. Darn..)
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. (Don't we all...)
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before. (Baileys.. Yum)
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park Movie".
I would die for my best friends. (Greater love no man than this, that a man would lay down his life for a friend...)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. (Hell's beats Pizza Hut anytime)
I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (What career? I'm unemployed)
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. (Eww..)
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (Too old for trick or treat)
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it. (Never watched it before. It's sad I know)
I am happy at this moment (Yeah, I really am...)
I’m obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time. (I have no life...)
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now. (There's always room for improvement)
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge. (Never going to happen man)
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup. (What money?)
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (Oh yeah..muahaha.. *evil cackle* Ok I'm kidding. I'm normal. I'm ok. I think.)
I’m proficient in a musical instrument .(Thank you daddy for forcing me to get that diploma)
I have worked at a McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs. (I am going to work in an office for many many years to come. I can't hate it.)
I love sci-fi movies. (Not really)
I think water rules.
I went to college out of state.
I like sausages. (Not the ones they serve in Weir though. Those are imitation sausages. Yuck...)
I love kisses. (Who in the world will not like kisses? Unless they're from someone you DON'T WANT to get kisses from, but that's different...)
I fall for the worst people. (I sincerely hope not.. no..)
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thingy.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle. (Don't ask me to try. It's completely embarrassing)
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. (Woww..)
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet. (Where is my willpower?? Sobzz..)
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (Are you kidding? I'm trying to REMEMBER stuff)
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (It runs in the family)
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions. (Maybe in the future)
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist. (HAHAHAHAHAHA.....)
I only clean my room when necessary. (Sorry Fi :p)
I like a person of the same sex. (Yeap. Don't you have friends of the same sex? You do need to like someone to be their friend you know.. It doesn't always have to be 'gayish'.)
I love being happy. (Don't you?)
I am an adrenaline junkie. (Not really. But I do wish I had the guts to do some dangerous stuff.)
I stab Jia Yin, Vivian, Jarod, Amanda and Peter
Enjoy!
exams are coming
So what's new? Exams will always come and they will never end until I have CA behind my name. And that's not even a guarantee. Ah the trials of life... they are never ending.It's starting in two weeks time. I have 4 exams that I need to sit for.I'm kinda worried about MGMT 101. I did ok in my internals. Only 'ok'. I need to struggle really hard in the exam for that A.Sighz..God I need you
unexpected
When you wake up in the morning and look out the window, you see familiarity and rountine. It's another day. You're thankful for it. It's nice and sunny. To you, it is just another day that you have to live, and you sincerely hope that it'll be a good one. You hope for something different to happen, but of course, you keep that hope deep down within yourself, buried so deeply that it is almost in your unconcious mind.You begin to think of all the wonderful things that have come to pass, and think ahead of all the dreams that your heart yearns to come true. You pray to God for strength to move on through good and bad times, and for faith to believe that your life does matter. It's insignificant in terms of the world, but it matters to God. He'll take care of everything. You believe with all of your being that He'll take care of you.Then time goes by, and the days go by and by, and each day seems like a routine. Then on a fine day, you wake up to realize that your life has been changed forever. Unexpected. You open up your eyes and in a state of drowsiness, tried to recollect the memories of yesterday. Then it hit you.It's not a routine anymore.Something new happened. Unexpected.And it makes you smile. You look out the window. You don't see routine. You see everything afresh and anew. You see hope. You see dreams. You see answered prayers. You see your own life coming to a turning point, and you know that things will never be the same. Never. It'll always be unexpected.It's like the song..."You wake up, suddenly, you're in love.."
