Quoted from Philip Yancey's "Prayer - Does it make a difference?"
"One Saturday afternoon I stood in the back of the church and looked up at the cross and it dawned on me that if Jesus died for me then he must love me. My life began to change at ten years old when I found God and he found me.
Now my continuing struggle is that I am single and I don't really want to be. Singleness is an awkward thing to talk about, especially in a culture like the church that's always promoting family and marriage. 'What's wrong with her?' peope think. 'Is she gay? Is she too picky? Maybe she's afraid of commitment. Oh, the poor thing'.
The song "Enough" by Chris Tomlin is cast as a prayer: 'All of you is more than enough for all of me. You satisfy every thirst and every need. Jesus, you are more than enough'. The Scriptures agree, promising that Christ fills everything in every way: 'My God will supply all your needs, according to his riches in Christ Jesus.' God and I have an on-going argument about those passages. After all, if you're not married, you have to find someone to fight with!
The fight goes like this: 'God, if you are really more than enough, then why don't you just take care of my problem?' God doesn't answer, and the fight goes on. 'Okay, if you're really enough, then why is it harder today than it was twelve months ago to be single? Why does it get harder and not easier?' And God still doesn't answer, and the fight goes on and on.
The truth is, 49 percent of the time God isn't enough. It hurts. It is hard to drive home alone all the time. But 51 percent of the time God is enough. Especially when I rely on others in the body of Christ - and the loving families who have 'adopted' me - to fill that emptiness deep inside me. Meanwhile, we keep fighting, God and I."
