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Thursday, August 28, 2008
for all are sinners

Of fallen heroes...

Watching my heroes - those I love the best -
I saw them fail; they could not stand the test
Even by this the Lord, through tears not few,
Unto Himself me drew.

He is not the first, and he won't be the last.

And remember that all have sinned, and thus, all are in need of grace. None have attained perfection, and all have fallen from righteousness. The world's moral compass rates the level of sin, putting some sins as being worse than others. But sin, by its very fundamental definition, just means separation from God. All are separate, and hence lies the power of grace, because none can attain reconciliation with God but by grace.

Really, who can stand the test? None but Jesus.

Please say a prayer for the fallen heroes, past and present, who failed because of sin. God's purposes will triumph in the darkness, it always will! Sin will be no more, and all that is left is unending grace, undeserving forgiveness and undying love.

And no matter what happens, "Healer" is still my anthem song, because the words are true: He is Jehovah Rapha, my Healer; He is Jehovah Jireh, my Portion, and He is more than enough for me.
D I V A at 8:49 PM
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Monday, August 25, 2008
there again and back again!

In the beginning, God created the heavens and the earth...
Port Hills, Christchurch

It was indeed a very memorable trip! This time, it was Vivy and me and for 6 days, we ate, shopped, ate, shopped, spend time with friends, ate, shopped.. ah such is life! Thank you so much 26 Ballantyne Avenue for putting us up! It made the trip way cheaper than it would have been.

The weather was very kind to us. It was sunny most days. It rained only on the second day that we were there, but that didn't stop us from visiting the city centre. We also went to Akaroa, and it was absolutely beautiful. There was no wind, and the sun was out, and it was the perfect place to laze about and do nothing (except eating).

Glo, Ray, Bern, Ka-Mun and many others were very kind to us, bringing us around and showing us the good places to eat. Put a whole bunch of Asians together (especially boys/men between ages 20-23), and add in food, and you get lots of fun and jokes! I think that is how life should be. Eat, laugh, and do both with friends.

Now that we're back, the reality of our calorie-laden body has finally sinked in. And uni starts in a week. Sigh.

On a lighter and happier note, lots of people are getting baptized this Sunday! Yaay! Thank God for His never-ending grace! And His mercy is new every morning.

So I probably should start getting some work done, so that I won't be cramming like a mad person at the end of term.

Something romantic...

The ultimate test of true love

Lt. John Blanchard was in New York City at Grand Central Station, and he looked up at the big clock. It said five till six. His heart was racing. At exactly six o'clock he was going to meet the girl whom he thought he was in love with, but had never met. This is what had happened... He had been in Florida for pilot training during World War II, and while he was there he happened to go to a library and check out a book. As he flipped through the pages, he noticed that someone had made notes in the margins. Reading the insightful observations in beautiful handwriting, he said to himself, " I would love to meet whoever wrote these notes - they seem so kind, gentle and wise."

He looked in the front of the book and saw a name, Harlyss Maynell, New York City. He decided to try to find her. With the help of a New York City phone book, he found her address and wrote her a letter. The day after he wront her, he was shipped back overseas to fight in the war.

Surprisingly, Harlyss answered John's letter. They soon began to correspond back and forth throughout the war. "Her letters were just like the marvelous notes she had written in that book," John recalled. "She was so comforting and so helping."

One time John had confessed in a letter that he had been scared to death when they flew over Germany. Harlyess had encouraged him," All brave men are afraid at times. Next time you are afraid, just say, "Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for Thou art with me."

As they continued to write, John began to realize that he was having romantic feelings toward Harlyss. He wrote, "Send me a picture," and she replied,"No, I won't. Relationships are not built on what people look like."

Still, he was intrigued by her and longed to meet her in person. Finally, the day came when he was to return to the States on leave. He mentioned in one of his letters that he was coming home and would like to take her to dinner. She had arranged to meet him in New York City's Grand Central Station at 6pm, under the big clock. "You'll know who I am because I'll be wearing a red rose," she told him.

At last the day had come. John waited nervously to finally meet the girl he thought he loved. Here is how John described his first meeting with Harlyss Maynell:

"A young woman was coming toward me, her figure long and slim. She had blonde hair that lay back in curls from her delicate ears. Her eyes were as blue as flowers. Her lips and chin had a gentle firmness, and in a pale green suit she looked like spring-time come alive!

Excitedly, I started toward her, entirely forgetting to notice that she was not wearing a red rose. As I moved her way, she noticed me. A small provocative smill curled her lips.

"Going my way, soldier?" she asked coyly. I took another step closer to her. It was then that I saw.. Harlyss Maynell with the red rose in her coat, directly behind the girl in green. My heart sank. She was a woman well past forty. She was plump. She had graying hair tucked under a worn hat. Her thick ankles were thrust into low shoes. The girl in the green suit was walking quickly away. I had to make a choice. Should I follow after the beauty who had just spoken to me? Or stay and face poor Harlyss Maynell?

I made my decision and I did not hesitate. Turning toward the woman, I smiled. Even as I began to speak, I felt choked by bitter disappointment. "You must be Miss Maynell, " I said, extending my hand. "I'm so glad you could meet me. Will you join me for dinner?"

The older woman's face then broadened into a smile. "I don't know what this is all about, son," she replied, "but you know that young woman in the green suit who just went by? I met her on the train. She begged me to wear this rose in my coat. She said that if you should ask me to dinner, to tell you she's waiting for you in that big restaurant across the street. She said it was some kind of test."

I am so much more than what is written on my face.

D I V A at 1:45 PM
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Sunday, August 17, 2008
bits and pieces everywhere

When pain turns to years
It goes away
A memory far gone
So bitter sweet
And sweet it is to taste recovery
The loss of my friend

....

It's the mid-term break now! This is probably the first proper mid-term break that I've had since I started uni! Usually there are always assignments or tests after mid-term, but this time, there are no assignments due and there are no tests! Praise God for simple, good things!

I'll be off to Christchurch AGAIN tomorrow. When people ask me how often I've been to Christchurch I will have a sheepish smile on my face. Been there perhaps too many times in a year, but everytime I was there, I went back happy, and always wished that I could stay just a little longer.

I had an Audit test a couple of weeks back, and the result was not very good. This is my weakest area, probably because I don't have any real experience in audit. Sigh.. hopefully my brain will buck up soon and start understanding stuff like "susceptibility" and "materiality" and whatever other stuff that comes with audit. I also handed in the COML essay a few days ago, and it felt good that I managed to do it. It was about economic duress *snores*. When I first saw the question and did the recommended readings, my mind was still in a blank as to how I'm suppose to approach it. So I prayed. Prayer does have an edge. I had only a week left to do the essay, and when I did the readings again a light bulb in my head went off! Yaay! I don't know whether I did well in it, I'm just glad I could do it.

Also, AOCF is having their very first musical! Check it out here. Ruth, Peng and I will be going to watch it. Yaay again! *Bank account is NOT screaming yaay, but sigh.. such is life.* The one and only time I was in Auckland (not including transits), was at TSCF Conference '06. And it was one of the happiest times in my life. I met lots of great people, and part of me, until now, has always wished that we would have more opportunities to bond more. AND, I heard that they have chicken rice for 6 bucks. YUM YUM!!! =D and bak kwah, and dunkin donuts, and shopping malls, and did i say chicken rice?

Arise Conference just ended. And I have to say, Paul de Jong is DA MAN! I was touched by his messages, and its no wonder that the church is 8000-9000 strong. He was talking about Agapean love today, which he defines as random, genuine act of kindness. He suggested having a Agape club, where members would do random acts of kindness, like buying someone lunch. And after secretly buying them lunch, the members would leave a card near the guy, and the card would say:" You have just been AGAPE-ED. Check out www.agape.com." And the website would have the story about Jesus! Now that's a real cool way to do evangelism! Its something that my dad used to do, and he probably does do. When some random beggar ask for money from him, he would say this in a stern voice with a fierce look, :" I TAKDA DUIT. U MAU MAKAN? I BELI U MAKANAN. MAU MAKAN? MAU? DUIT I TAKDA. MAKAN ADA". which basically means:" I DON'T HAVE MONEY. YOU WANT TO EAT? I'LL BUY YOU FOOD? WANT? MONEY, I DON'T HAVE. FOOD, I HAVE." haha it used to crack me up. I guess its better to give them food than money. At least you know the money is used to feed someone and not for smoking pot. I signed up for next year's conference, and hope that it'll be even more awesome.

Olympics! God, please give Malaysia the gold for badminton. I know Lin Dan is world number one. But You who take the foolish to confound the wise, who used a fisherman to build your church, who used tiny, little David to kill Goliath.. I'm sure you can work a miracle here. In 8 hours I will know the result, but oh well.. its still worth praying for =). Despite everything that is going on back home, home is still home. Home has great potential, and the church needs to stand strong so that the nation will be saved. Imagine if all of Malaysia is under Christ!

....

Now it's only in my dreams
That I've been there
Her eyes so in love
Her kiss so real
Now if only I could stay
And dream a while
If a dream lasts a lifetime

-Shane & Shane-

My heart cannot say its goodbye.

And though I know you only in part,

I'm singing to strangers about you.

And even if I stop, the song continues on.

But sometimes..

The wait just seems a little too long.

D I V A at 2:18 PM
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Wednesday, August 06, 2008
remedy

Where there is pain
Let us bring grace

Where there is suffering
Bring serenity

For those afraid
Let us be brave

Where there is misery
Let us bring relief

Let us be the REMEDY

...

Jesus, the name that charms our fears
That bids our sorrows cease
'Tis music in the sinner's ears
'Tis life and health and peace

...

~David Crowder Band~
D I V A at 4:58 PM
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Sunday, August 03, 2008
mourn

~Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted~

Christianity calls for its believers to mourn for the state of the world. The very reason for Jesus' birth is God's love, and hence, mourning, for a world that is broken and fallen. We are called to be concern with not just ourselves, but for things that are greater than us.

Poverty, diseases, crimes, broken families...

For He is Jehovah Rapha, the Great Healer. And His followers are called to partner with Him in the healing this world.

The same power that conquered the grave is in me.
Your love that rescued the earth lives in me.

So follow Me, and I will show you great things that will confound the wise, and I will do great things through you. Follow Me.
D I V A at 10:52 AM
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