Drink with me to days gone by....
I know that this is how life is like. We need to evolve and adapt. Time does not stand still. And neither does it go back. But right now, I want it to stop, and I want to go back to the way things were. I am excited about the future because I know it will be different, but I am also afraid of the change that I'm gonna have to face.
Empty chairs and empty tables. My friends, all gone.
I've always known that this point in time will come to pass. People come and people go, and some people leave deeper footprints than others. But nothing lasts forever, and that makes my heart heavy and sorrowful. What am I suppose to do without them? They were part of my life here. My experiences of university and New Zealand are filled with them. And now, for the very first time since I've step into uni, I won't know who I'm suppose to sit with, or where in the library I'm suppose to go. I'll have to start all over again, and nothing will be the same. Ever.
Empty chairs and empty tables.
I hate change. And I hate the fact that life is all about change. And what choice to I have but to learn how to accept the future before me?
I'm so sad to see them go, but I know, at this point in time, this is where I'm suppose to be, and it breaks me that they are not going to be part of my daily journey anymore. They have been part of it for the past 3 years. I kinda feel a bit lost now. I thought it'll be easier because I'm following what my heart is telling me to do, what I think God has planned for me to do. But no. It is still not easy to watch them leave, knowing that I cannot do anything about it.
So what now?
Chin up. And try to embrace the new.
But I will always remember the past and cherish the engraved memories in my heart. It is not everyday that you meet people whom you know you will always have a bond with. These are people that I'm never going to ever forget. And seeing them again in a random street somewhere in the future is going to give me a sense of happiness that nothing else in this world can offer. That's friendship. And that is one of the lasting forms of love that this broken world can offer.
Empty chairs and empty tables. With drops of tears.
But surely God will be kind to me. And with the technology these days, the distance probably will not be as bad as I make it out to be. But still, everything is going to be different now.
But at least, I had the honour and the joy to call them "friends". And that is enough.
At the shrine of friendship never say die
May the wine of friendship never run dry
I will miss you.
