Nearly all of God's jewels are crystallized tears
Sometimes life will throw curve balls at you. And most times people don't understand why. But eventually we will need to learn how to deal with it. There is no teacher that is better than experience.
I thought I am gonna be tutoring this semester, but it seems that that is not the case. I wasn't exactly sure why, but I think its because there were too many available tutors who could only tutor ACCY 111, so I was given marking for ACCY 302, without any classes to tutor. Marking gives me 400 dollars for the whole semester. So I'm pretty much jobless now. Being jobless after working part-time and studying as well for the past one year (and being able to balance both), kinda makes me feel like a bum. I will be financially tight, and won't be able to do much. I was sad, and was also thinking of getting another job. If I were to apply for admin jobs, I would need to quit by end of October because I start my internship in November. And I feel just slightly immoral for accepting jobs with the knowledge that I'm gonna quit in 4 months, and the employer doesn't know. There might be other people who are just as qualified applying for the same job, but willing to stay with the company for a longer period. If I try for retail jobs, the likelihood is that I won't get it because of the lack of experience, and even if I got it I'll be on minimum wage. So we're looking at getting about 10 dollars per hour after tax. Mum is of the opinion that the time is better spent studying. I think its better spent on watching Cantonese drama. But both of us agree that the time spent and the effort put towards working in retail is probably not worth the pay. Plus, I'm used to getting paid higher than minimum wage. My first job paid 15 dollars an hour. Above all, I am too lazy to apply for another job. I'm still pretty much in a holiday mood, and I don't wanna be doing anything else but be a bum. But right now, I am a very poor bum, which is not very good. Allowance from my sponsors will only come end of the month, so I need to be really tight with money till then. After I receive my allowance, I still need to be really tight with the money or else I won't survive for the next couple of months. Since I don't have any other source of income (except for the money that I'm gonna be getting for marking, which has already been designated into the "shopping for work clothes" account), I need to be thrifty with money. Times are also hard, with soaring inflation. Its hitting everybody.
And Jesus said, let the poor say I am rich.
I guess right now, it is more important than ever for me to have a kingdom-of-God perspective. God owns the heavens and the earth, and all things are His. His riches are infinite, and He calls me to Himself, giving me the honour to be known as His child. His name is Jehovah Jireh, the Great Provider, and surely in the midst of all of these things, He will provide for my every need. Like how the birds of the air do not store warehouses of food, but still survive, likewise He will take care of me.
The biblical heroes are real-life examples of how one can be rich in the midst of poverty. A kingdom-of-God perspective requires a shift in how we view money. Money is important, but it isn't everything. There are way more important things than money, like God, family, friendships, love. Now that I'm not working, and I'm only taking 2 papers in uni, I have a lot of free time in my hands. In fact, I think I can keep up with my readings now. I stopped doing readings before lectures since I started second year because there were too many. Now, I might even be prepared for classes. I will also have a bit more time to be more involved with church. And that is a good thing, because after getting into the worship team I rarely go for band practice because I'm always busy. Now that Mel is in the team as well, he's probably gonna kick my butt and make me go for practice.
I've also been watching Cantonese drama. I rarely speak Cantonese here in NZ because I speak either English or Mandarin, and sometimes even Malay. So I'm hoping that by watching lots I can improve my Cantonese again.
Going to Palmerston North for the weekend with Ruth (hope that she is still coming! That thesis can be a real pain, to her and to everyone else who cares about her!) Yaay! The couple of times that I've been to Palmy, I always end up in the outskirts of Feilding (for camps). So I've never actually seen the city.
For every love, there is a heart somewhere, ready to receive it. - Ivan Panin
I lift my glass, and drink to love, and never give up.
