Continuing from the last entry...
I've decided.
Decided what?
Decided that I don't.
Oh come on, you're in self...
Yeah. Maybe. Whatever. But you know what?
What?
I can't do this anymore. It's not worth it.
Not worth it? Why?
Because its not. Because I need to hope for something better ahead of me.
Not good enough for you?
It's not that. It's just how things are. Sometimes you hope for things that you know will never come to pass. And you know this. You know that its not gonna happen.
Nobody knows the future. Things can change.
Yeah I know that. I guess I can hope for things to change, but at what expense?
*silence*
So enough is enough. I don't. I've decided that I don't and I don't care what my heart feels. I don't. And my heart will follow soon enough.
You can't pick. Your heart decides such matters. Not the mind.
Bullshit. Just watch me. The mind makes conscious decisions which the heart knows is right. The two should be one, never separated.
So what's gonna happen now?
Nothing. Things stay the same. The transformation is in here, my head, and here, my heart. Nothing outside changes. But I.. I need to change.
Letting go?
Yeah.
For good?
Yeah.
Not looking back?
I don't want to.
What if?
It's all right. I know that this is right.
How do you know?
Faith. And this is my heart telling me. This is right. There will be a better tomorrow.
How do you know this?
Because God is good. And He knows.
