Dreaming permits each and every one of us to be quietly and safely insane every night of our lives. ~William Dement~
When you dream, you dialogue with aspects of yourself that normally are not with you in daytime and you discover you know a great deal more than you thought you did. ~Toni Cade Bambara, US writer~
I was standing on top of the stone-cut stairs, with my newborn baby in my arms. He was sleeping quietly, snuggled comfortably against my breast. I felt the gushing wind, splashing on my face, flowing through my hair. I felt danger. I smelled jeopardy. Before my brain can instruct my motor functions what to do in the imminent threat, I sensed the creature behind me. The hairs behind my neck stood at attention, and a cold shudder attacked my body. I couldn't move. I was paralyzed with fear.
He came running towards me and immediately grabbed my hand. We ran for our lives. He took me around the block, and ran down towards another flight of stairs. I remember hanging corpses at both sides of the stairs. Their skin was peeled. Their flesh and guts were exposed. When we reached the bottom of the stairs, we ran around another block of building. My hands were always in his. He never looked back, but he made sure his grip on me was tight. I remember the ground to be wet and grassy, with water splashing everywhere with each running step I took. The whole place was flooded. "This place look like a paddy field," I thought. I did not feel afraid. The rain continue to pour, but it is slowing to a light drizzle. He led us across the field, and out of the gate. He didn't let go of me. I knew he wouldn't. That's why I felt no fear. We ran, but the creature kept coming close. We didn't look back, but somehow we can sense it behind us, and it's gaining speed. We knew we just need to make it beyond the gate. We just need to cross the gate and we'll be safe. He won't be able to harm us then. We continued running, and when we reach the gate we were extremely happy to see that it's open. We ran across it, and the chasing stopped. The danger was eliminated. We're safe now. Only then did I look back. The place was enchantingly beautiful. Green planes coupled with the rain. It was breath-taking.
He was still holding my hand, and my baby is still safe. When I turned to look at the face of the man who saved my life and my baby's, in whom I have felt such security...
I woke up.
I had this exact same dream for so many times for so many years. Each time when I wake up, I can't remember his face. I remember everything. Every single detail, except for his face.
But recently, I stopped having this dream. What does that mean? And I still don't know who the man is.
It was the middle of the night. Pitch dark. There were rows and rows of tall, gothic buildings. It was full moon. I was strolling along the pavement, struting with my high heels. I saw my best friend walking towards me. I waved my hand and called out her name. Smiling, I waited for her to respond.
She walked towards me, and on her face was a sinister grin. Really evil and threatening. I don't understand it. This is my best friend, but I didn't bother. She kept walking towards me at a frightening speed. Both her hands reached out to me. She smiled, and her teeth showed. There were two extremely long and sharp ones at the corner of her mouth. Her hands encircled my throat. My best friend is a vampire. Great. I ran. Try running in high heels. It can kill ya. But I ran anyway. I didn't know how I've done it. But I kept on running. Ran through some doors, around a few blocks until I finally lost her.
When I finally stopped to catch my breath, I saw another good friend of mine walking towards me. Finally a caring face. He is like a brother to me. He came to me and smiled. Again, his hands streched out towards me, his teeth showed, hands encircling my throat, and I ran again. The whole place was filled with those creatures, and all of it are my friends. Ran and ran and ran..
I woke up sweating.
I had this dream for a few times also. Exact same one. My friends are vampires and they want to eat me. Great. Wonderful. But I don't get it though... humans can't outrun vampires, at least that's what Hollywood told us. But I can outrun them. But I stopped having this dream for a while now.
Noticed how my dreams are always about 'running away'? My friend said that it's because I feel insecure. There is something that I fear, and I keep trying to run away from it. But I stopped having these dreams for quite some time now. Does it mean that I'm secure now?
I lied awake on the bed. The sheets were white. The walls were white. Everything was white. I rolled on my side and placed my head on his shoulder. I hugged him close. He kissed my forehead and ran his hand down my back. He held me tight. I was in a state of bliss. Exceedingly happy and in love.
I looked up and saw his face. He's aged now, not like when we first met but still handsome. He has always been handsome to me. The white strands of hair were visible, and so are the wrinkles on his face. His face.. he had such an angular and strong jaw. Masculine.
"Fran.. I.." he whispered.
I placed my fingers on his lips, as a motion for him to keep the silence. I kissed him..
I woke up.
I saw his face. I saw it. But I can't remember. I only remember the white strands of hair and a very masculine jaw. But I can't remember anything else. I saw his face, but I don't remember it.
I could really use a "Joseph, the interpreter of dreams".
When you dream, you dialogue with aspects of yourself that normally are not with you in daytime and you discover you know a great deal more than you thought you did.
I know a great deal more all right. I know I have a wild imagination and I'm insane.
What do you dream about?
