Then why does she feel so weak and helpless against the tides?
So what else is there to do but to again disappear into the darkness of night, and let sorrow engulf her again until she heals?
If only He would come. Then she can be what she was meant to be: good. No more tears. No more pain. No more running away.
That's all she wants. To stop running. Stop fighting. Stop struggling
Oct 2006.
"Look Fran, it's raining. God is crying for you."
"Yeah, I'm crying for me too."
Contribution: “My faith demands that I do whatever I can, wherever I am, whenever I can, for as long as I can with whatever I have to try to make a difference.”
ICF has given me the chance to contribute to other people, and to make a difference in their lives. When I became Treasurer, my reason for doing so was simple: I wanted to make a positive difference to those around me, and perhaps by doing so, they can see a little bit of God in me, and will one day yearn to know who He is. And this resonated with what ICF is all about – students reaching students for Christ. I have been given many opportunities to make a difference, and such chances came my way because of the role I played in the committee. There are a few fundamental things that the Treasurer is expected to do: keeping the accounts, manage the financial side of ICF (ie. fund raising and such) and to help out with the admin work. But the role came with many other things that have enriched my time on committee. I am involved in the missional side of ICF, and thus I get to co-lead a Discovering Jesus Group with Esther (and I am extremely proud of my group!), to work alongside Christian Union in Jesus Awareness “stuff”, to meet new people during Orientation etc, just to name a few. I hope what little I have done have contributed towards the vision of ICF, but as always, there is more to be done, even after my time on committee is over.
Lessons: “The greatest love that anyone could ever know; that overcame the cross and grave to find my soul…”
I have learnt and experience much during my time in committee, and space constraint does not allow me to list them all down, but there are some major lessons that I have learnt. I have learnt that to follow God is a conscious choice, and it comes from knowing and acknowledging who God is, and the eternal, “agape” (divine) love that He has for us. This is the greatest love that I have known, and my experiences plus the things that I have learnt affirmed me again and again that this is true. And because of this love, I try my best to share this love with others, in words and in deed, although I myself am a sinful person. The best thing is I have received love from others because they are trying to do the same thing. I have learnt the importance of knowing God through the Bible, and to always read it in context and with a studious mind. I have also learnt the importance of community - we are accountable not only to God, but also to those who have authority, and also to those who work together with us. We are family.
A highlight: “One superlative song that out-carols the lark and the nightingale…”
There is one highlight during my time in committee: talking to complete strangers during Orientation. And this was by far the hardest thing that I have done, and I consider this accomplishment far more significant than the rest. It is my personality to be terrified of strangers, but being in committee sure took care of that. I was going around campus with ICF brochures in my hand and introducing ICF to complete strangers. The responses that I got were varied and interesting. I had to do that all over again during the second semester. I am still terrified of strangers, just that I can hide it much better now, and all thanks goes to ICF.
So its finally done. The new committee has been elected, and my time is done. I feel relieved. Yet, I have this nagging feeling that one day I will look back and regret this day. But that is the chance that I have to take. I need to choose a path, and all paths have costs.
It's done, but its not really over yet.