Vivian said something absolutely amazing to me few days ago...
"God puts a few doors in front of you. Sometimes you will choose the wrong door. And when you do, He will pull you out of the door and slam it shut, so that you won't get hurt. You need to have faith. Trust the Lord.."
And I thought I was the one who is Christian. The greatest lessons in life are taught by those whom you least expect. =) Thanks Vivi!
There are so many things that I wish I could do, but I know that if I do it, it will not be God's plans, and thus I will suffer the consequences for making bad choices. I wish I had a proper job so that I can have some savings. But with the commitments that I have and about to have, no employer would want to employ me because I'm busy all the time. I wish I can handle a few major responsibilities all at once, but I am not Superwoman. I am only a mere human with limited strength, energy and time to offer. Time management is so essential to me now. I don't want to experience the 'burn-out' stage, because I cannot afford to. The price to pay would be far too high. I wish that I can do lots of things, but I only have 24 hours a day, and to do them all would demand too much of me, to the point where I will have nothing left to offer. I will not have regrets in giving my all in things that I am passionate about. However, if my motives are anything other than passion, I will burn out. And yet, praise God! For He has opened my eyes and put a song in my heart! I see the reasons for my trials, and He has taught me to be wise in the decisions that I am about to make. He has promised to keep me away from harm, and will watch over my life.
I've made certain bad choices, but God has always stepped in before things got out of hand. When I walked through a wrong door, He never fails to pull me away and slam it shut. Most of the time, He sent loving people around me to care for me and give me advice. I have been advice to learn how to prioritise my responsibilities, and not to take too much on board. When God closes a door, He always opens a window, because the window will lead to a higher purpose, a greater calling, and to His perfect destination for us. I have made some decisions about prioritising my responsibilities, and have come to the conclusion that what I have on my plate now is just enough for me. I have my studies (which is the reason I'm in New Zealand) and the career-related dreams that I am yet to achieve; ICF of which I have a great commitment to and passion for; City Church's lifegroup which is composed of people who have become my family and support; and of course the friendships that I have made and the awesome relationships that have been built since I came here. All of these are enough for now. Maybe later on I can add on more things (like earning money so that my heart won't be scarred everytime I swipe EFTPOS), but for now, I am bliss =). ECON 140's consumer theory teaches that marginal utility is maximised when one reaches the "bliss" point, and further increases in goods/services will decrease utility, causing the person to be worse off than before. (In my world, this does not apply to 'heaven food' like chocolate cake and free dinners. Yuumm.) Economics is wonderful. It can be applied in everything!! (I've reached the level of geekiness but I don't care! I actually understand Economics. Yaay!!)
The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way? -Proverbs 20:24-
Life is a ride. Enjoy it.
