On my way back to the hostel, I lost my student ID. I don't know how it happened. One minute it was in my hand, and the next thing I know it's gone. I tracked back my steps and tried to search for it. I couldn't find it anywhere. I have statistic test in less than two hours. I need the card to get into the hostel. I need the card. I was getting anxious and worried. Losing the card is going to cause me lots of problems for the next few days, especially when accessing the hostel doors. I walked around the path in Kelburn Park. I walked around the playground in front of Weir. I couldn't find it. I felt helpless.
I rushed into the hostel when I saw a few others who were on their way back to the hostel. I stashed my things up in my room and ran back down to the playground to try and find my ID.
Then from afar I saw Zac. He was kind enough to offer me a hand. We went round and round, searching everywhere but couldn't find it. In the end, I gave up. I felt bad for bothering him. So I went inside for dinner. I can't stop thinking about how stupid I was for losing such an important thing. I was afraid that I might need it in my stat test for identification purposes. I was thinking about how am I going to go in and out of the hostel using the other entrances other than the main door. I was preparing myself to sacrifice precious money to pay for my carelessness.
I went back up to my room. I looked at myself in the mirror and squeezed a white, ghastly pimple. I chucked my test pad, graph paper, calculator, purse, keys, bottle of water, coin purse, passport and bible into my bag. (I have a bible life group right after the test, so that's why I brought my bible.) I sat on my bed, and with a sigh I uttered, "God, I know I never trusted you as much as I should. I pray that you will help me put my faith in You. Please help me find my student ID. I can't do anything more. But God, if I really can't get back my ID, I pray that this won't affect me in my test later. Thank you, Lord."
I stood up and took the long way out of the hostel. I stepped into the playground and started scanning again, one last time. There were two guys there who were talking. One of them looked at me and said, "Did you lose something?". I looked up and said, "Yeah, I lost my ID." He took a puff of his cigarette and said, "Yeah I know. I picked it up and kept it. Here, is this yours?" I walked towards his extended arm and took that familiar piece of plastic. I couldn't say anything but the words "Thank you". Thank you for holding on to my ID. Thank you God for answering my prayer. Today an angel appeared to me in the form of a guy with dreds and he was smoking.
It was only an ID. God didn't have to help me. In fact, I think I totally deserve a few days of suffering because of my utter stupidity and carelessness. It would have taught me a lesson that I'll never forget. But He, the great and mighty, was interested in helping me to find my student ID. It's just an ID, and yet He was interested. I felt overwhelmed. If He's willing to take care of me in lil' things such as ID, what more of the big things in life like studies, my future, and relationships? Will He not take care of those areas of my life as well? He changed my life today.
It's the little things that change life. In the future, if I'm discouraged or feeling helpless, all I need to do is remembering that angel with dreds and a cigarette, and how God used a stranger to tell me one profound truth: "have faith in Me."
Oh yeah, I had my first test today. Statistics 193. I have Dr. Dong Wang to thank. Lots of the questions he gave in the sample tests came out in the real thing. Time was against me but I'm glad I was able to finish it in time with a few more minutes to spare. I don't know how I did in the test but I'm hoping that it won't be too bad. Easter break is coming in two more days. I have my whole weekend planned out. MAN I AM EXCITED!!!
